Saturday. That great day between the last day of the work week and the day before the first day of the work week. Why is there only one of those days each week? I really tried to make this one count. Tara started feeling weak from Thursday’s chemotherapy. Not horrible. Just weak. The kids had places to be, so I played taxi, and I loved every minute of it. I had time alone in the car with each of them. In between trips I came home, sat on the bed with Tara and we talked. We had several long gazes into each other’s eyes ended with an “I love you”.
Tara really wanted to go to church tonight but couldn’t muster the strength. I had a plan. I took my iPad and FaceTimed the entire worship service to her. She was able to participate from the comfort of her bed. It was dark in the bedroom where she was, and I could’t see her on my end of the iPad. I wondered if she was there and I texted her from my phone. The glow of her phone when the text arrived lit up her face and on the iPad I could see her. She is beautiful. I kept texting to light up her face…..again and again.
This is day 39. We are making it. God has given us strength and joy for this day. Tomorrow, I am confident there will be some for tomorrow. He has proven it 39 times.
Reminds me of the book title “just enough light for the step I’m on”. That’s all each of us needs. I know Tara that you know with certainty that our life is not our own but we belong to the creator. All we can do is trust Him to bring His awesome beauty out of ashes. Love you sister in Christ.
In Heavenly Love Abiding
In heavenly love abiding, no change my heart shall fear. And safe in such confiding, for nothing changes here. The storm may roar without me, my heart may low be laid,
But God is round about me, and can I be dismayed?
Wherever He may guide me, no want shall turn me back. My shepherd is beside me, and nothing can I lack. His wisdom ever waking, His sight is never dim. He knows the way He’s taking, and I will walk with Him.
Green pastures are before me, which yet I have not seen. Bright skies will soon be over me, where darkest clouds have been. My hope I cannot measure, my path to life is free. My savior has my treasure, and He will walk with me.
– Anna Laetitia Waring (1823-1910)
Wise woman. No matter where He leads we trust Him. I wish you didn’t have to be going thru this Tara and your whole family, but we Trust in our Father. We love you!
Hi Tara and Jay,
I would never have thought of face timing the service with an ipad, but what a great idea. We have a kindle, so it doesn’t work that way. Whenever I watch my honorary grandkids for any longer than a weekend, we facetime with their parents on their ipad. It’s fun to see them where they are and for them to see what we are doing as well. Technology has taken mass distances and shortened them in ways we could not have imagined even 10 years ago and yet being face to face is always better. One of my favorite songs is “I can only imagine”. As much as I know that God loves me, I look forward to the day when I can see Him face to face. Until then I can only see Him on the faces of my friends like both of you. Will I laugh or will I cry when I see you at church again – probably a little of both. I plan to start coming Saturday nights again and hope to see both of you there. I miss you. Until we can be face to face with each other again, know that I am praying for you and yours. May the peace of Christ be yours now and always.
In Christ, Dawn
First text I ever got? One from Jay while holding on to Tara’s phone after seeing Aaron Shust. Your post made me smile. You all are continually in our prayers. Sending virtual hugs your way!