One Step Back

This treatment process has continuously been two steps forward and one step back. Today was the step back. No big deal. Tara woke up with a fever. I was gone early so I had no clue. When I called to check in, she was recovering from fainting. She felt it coming and got to the carpeted floor without crashing hard. When she woke she gathered some strength and made it to the bed.

I came home around 7:45 to make sure she was okay. She needed more than I knew how to give. So we called on the doctor. They took blood to make sure her counts were okay; fortunately they were. Still nauseous and too weak to walk, she was wheeled to a different building to get an I.V. and take an antibiotic. The doc thinks she has an infection of some sort and since the blood counts are okay, we can try to let her body fight it with the help of the antibiotic.

Now she is laying here with a 102 temperature, a high heart rate, and feeling miserable. We keep wondering if we should go in. We may yet. We’ll see.

Implications? My sister and her family were planning to come for a quick visit this weekend. That won’t happen. Also no chemo this week, which means there will be 2 weeks in a row without it (because next week we will be in Florida).

So I’ll keep you posted as to what happens tonight. Tara is fighting hard. There have been so many days of feeling better that this setback is somewhat expected to fit the pattern of the last few months. Maybe it was meant to be so she wouldn’t have chemo this week and she could feel better next week in Florida.

We are tired. The candle that has been burning on both ends, is eerily close to meeting in the middle. We need strength to carry on.


14 thoughts on “One Step Back

  1. We’re still praying here…. I know you’ve said that you didn’t like this last snow storm, but it sure is a good reminder for me to pray as I see your company vehicles scurrying around town. May God miraculously add fuel to your “lamp”!

  2. Oh dear me…..what a bummer! Of course, looking for the silver lining, it is fantastic that Tara’s counts are still good. That’s amazing really……prayers going up…..

  3. Continuously praying for God to give all of you strength… that the antibiotic will work quickly on Tara’s infection, and that you would have an amazing time in FL. As always, my family and I are praying for Tara’s healing. Although we’ve never met – we are family in Christ. And God hears our prayers. Lifting y’all up from Texas….

  4. I’ll be praying for superpower strength for both of you! I am confident He will give if we ask. I’m sure the candle that is burning from both ends is a lot longer than you think.

  5. Jay & Tara, I’m praying Ephesians 3:14-21 for you today…”When I think of the wisdom and scope of God’s plan, I fall to my knees and pray to the Father, the Creator of everything in heaven and on earth. I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources (thank you God, that we don’t have to rely on our own!) he will give you mighty inner strength through his Holy Spirit. And I pray that Christ will be more and more at home in your hearts as you trust in him. May your roots go down deep into the soil of God’s marvelous love. And may you have the power to understand, as all God’s people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep his love really is. May you experience the love of Christ, though it is so great you will never fully understand it. Then you will be filled with the fullness of life and power that comes from God. Now glory be to God! By his mighty power at work within us, he is able to accomplish infinitely more than we would ever dare to ask or hope. May he bi given glory in the church and in Christ Jesus forever and ever through endless ages. Amen.”
    I’m thanking God for your family…for your witness and encouragement to me as you travel this difficult road. Your openness, honesty and genuineness through blogging has been a ministry.

  6. Our hearts go out to you – keeping prayers and thoughts coming. Look forward to reading you prospectives everyday. Love Us B’s

  7. Dear LORD……..,Tara and Jay need a special touch from ,YOU…….TODAY…….LORD GOD ALMIGHTY. ………Let them sense your support and compassion in a very special way as YOU ENCIRCLE THEM WITH YOUR ARMS OF LOVE! Tara and Jay, know you are covered with prayer continually.

  8. Hello friends,
    I have been reading your blog for awhile and praying for you. I know Larry and Nan and am frontage Lakes area.
    I am blessed as you share your journeys…. Thank you for your honest opening your lives to let us see some of the pieces of your journey these days.
    My daughter had bone cancer and I was her main caregiver for 2 years and 2 months. I know some of the roller coaster of cancer. And so I pray God will continue to minister to your physical, relational, emotional, vocational and spiritual needs.
    A thought that really blessed me was this “do not be afraid of tomorrow… God is already there”….
    As I read about Tara’s fever I was reminded that we were told that fever was one way our body tries to cope with cancer… That sometimes a fever is not bad, but a natural defense mechanism. Wonder if Mayo would agree with that. (We doctored at the Univ of Minnesota in Minneapolis).
    I care and I will continue to pray. You are fighting a hard good fight. I am blessed to come alongside you in prayer.

  9. My heart is heavy after reading your last post. I wish I could carry some of your burden. I am adding your family to the prayer chain at our church. Maybe you just need some good Catholic prayers behind you:) I’m guessing the prayer chain circles the earth by now. Love to all of you.

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