Jenna is sitting here rubbing my head as I write tonight. Tara laying beside me sleeping. Micalyn and Esther are off at church activities. Andrean in the next room recovering from a cold. Lewis lying on the floor by my feet, petting the dog. This seems to sum up the average night here at the Maier home. It is beautiful. A month ago it seemed like a wasted evening that we could have been doing something productive.
I am realizing the impact of ‘presence’, simply being with my family. Not necessarily playing games, talking about something important, meeting their physical needs, training or other things like that, although those are great. Its just being together. It fulfills a critical need in our relationships.
The same is true in our relationship with God. Tara and I are most moved simply by his presence. Sure, we want him to answer our prayers. But being near him is what sustains our souls. Sometimes this involves a conversation with him, by reading his words; like reading the old love letters that Tara keeps in a box, reminding me of love and faithfulness. And by talking to him; like unloading our thoughts on each other at the end of a long day. The sweetness of this love relationship with God is intimate and sustains us. It gives us something to be excited about; like when we were first in love. It is our waking thought and most beautiful dream.
But the busyness of life causes us to lose focus and we often don’t get enough time like this, with each other or God. This defining moment in our life has helped us to do better. But as time wears on it will be a challenge again.