Over the last few weeks I had fought off a bad cold (maybe influenza) that has caused me to have to stay away from Tara. We couldn’t risk her weak immune system. I have felt like a leper in my own home, avoiding contact of any form with the woman I love. We have missed the intimacy of a kiss for 18 days, by far the longest we have ever gone since we were married. I have to imagine that over 19 and a half years we probably kissed 8 times per day, averaging the days we have been a part with the days we couldn’t stop kissing. That is about 57,900 kisses in a row, ending 18 days ago.
That’s our old record. The new record started today. The kisses today were different though. These were first kisses of sorts. Tingly to my toes kisses. But kisses with no expectation of more. These were enough for now. Before today, I only imagined kissing Tara like this when we are 80 years old. I didn’t look forward to that as much as I do now. I imagined it more stale, as a duty to her out of respect for the years we had been together. But now I understand more and I long for those days of too. Yes, deep respect, but overwhelming love and intimacy.
I long to be more intimate with Tara again. That’s about as much as I’ll say in a blog. But I can say that this is another way that God has blessed us. We are understanding love at deeper levels and now the kiss too is understood at a deeper level. I imagine we will understand even more as the weeks pass.
Thank you to those who have sent your locations to us. If you haven’t yet, please do. What an encouragement for Tara to hear all the places people are praying for her. Once we have all the pins in the map, we will take a picture and show you what we see.