I woke up exhausted. Stayed up later than I should have because the snow day had messed up my schedule….again. Forced myself out of bed and went through my usual morning routine. Then off I go, prepared to face the challenges of my day. I have been filling my mind with encouraging activities like listening to music and reading. This helps me have a better attitude throughout my day. This is not Jay Maier, but me, a teenage girl facing the trials of a family in crisis.
I came home on Wednesday, January 30, 2013 to find my parents waiting for me. Nothing good ever happens when they are waiting for me. Sure, my mom was sick and not doing well, but cancer? That wasn’t an option in my mind. At first I was in shock, nothing ever exciting and tragic happens to normal people! I wasn’t exactly sure how to act. Should I cry? Should I hug my mom? For the first week or so it was awkward. I didn’t see mom much because she was in the hospital.
I was overwhelmed with how many people actually wanted to help us! All the friends who came behind us and just comforted us or were just there. And if people hadn’t brought us food we would have starved!!:) It helped more than you would think.
My faith has grown because of mom’s cancer. I’ve had to rely on God to sustain me emotionally. He has given me a peace in this situation. An its-in-your-hands attitude. I have made more time to spend with Him. For example, the morning bus ride to school is spent in prayer and meditation on His voice.
Sharing my emotions has been a struggle with anyone outside of some really close friends. My parents have had people encouraging them through the blog and cards, but my friends have been there behind the scenes holding me up and just supporting me. This is how I survive.
Welcome to a different perspective, still from the treetops! God has been faithful to me:)