New Prayers. Day 83.

She sits on our bed and watches out the window, like she does every evening after dinner. She loves the birds; cardinals are her favorite. And the trees; especially the ones we labored to plant. She expectantly waits for spring. The sun and fresh air have always been therapeutic for her and this year it has been hard to come by. Her heart is thankful for what we have.

But her body is tired of being sick. The discomfort of a gut that isn’t working right. The resulting inability to eat well. The fatigue of doing simple tasks. Honestly we both thought she would be much further along by now. I imagined us being able to take spring walks by mid April. Maybe spring knew we would not quite be ready and that is why it waited.

We cannot be too discouraged. She smiles regularly. I occasionally even get a laugh. She is up throughout the day and involved in the kids lives. She enjoys the dog, her friends and time with me. There is a lot of joy daily. Its kind of weird to think that life is pretty darn good.

The weight on me is getting heavy. Business will soon be in its busiest season. I feel the need to be both home and at work and the tension is…well….its tense. Both places need me and by the end of the day, I have nothing left to give. My mind and body are able to be efficient, but my heart bears the weight of being insufficient, especially at home.

Prayers for us should shift. It seems like we have prayed everything we can pray about Tara’s healing. We feel that God is answering those prayers through the cancer numbers going in the right direction. Now we need prayers for endurance in discomfort (and relief from it), wisdom at home, provision at work. We need prayers for spiritual renewal. This is day 83, and God is even more faithful to us. We will trust him again to answer our new prayers.


12 thoughts on “New Prayers. Day 83.

  1. Jay- A BIG hug. We pray that Tara finds comfort and her ability to find solace in the precious things around her continues.

  2. I have enjoyed reading the children’s perspectives as well as yours Jay. It’s good to know that in our weakness, He is made strong. I will pray the supernatural strength of Christ for you, when needed, and the wisdom to rest when needed. Let me know when the weather is right for putting in your flowers. I will be glad to help and I think Stacie will come also. Lord, I pray for Tara, for relief from the stomach pains and for increased ability to eat and take nourishment. Give Jay wisdom to know when to work and when to rest, when to take charge and when to delegate and let go – especially at work. May his employees rise up to bless him in his hour of need. May warm weather and sunshine come and bring joy and hope in the renewal of plants and spirits. We ask it in Jesus’ name. amen

  3. You got this, Jay! One foot in front of the other… CAN do it! Move that mountain in barrow loads. When we look at the mountain it just seems too much….but, little by little…’d be amazed! God’s got this too! He’s got your back! So trust and obey, ’cause there’s no other way…..
    Prayers will stay praying for healing but “switched up”! Hugs to all.

  4. Praying for endurance, wisdom, peace and strength for each of you today!

    But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 2 Cor. 12:9

    From Hillsong’s “You Are My Strength”:
    “You are my strength. Strength like no other…reaches to me. You are my hope. Hope like no other….reaches to me. In the fullness of Your grace. In the power of Your name. You lift me up. Unfailing love. Stronger than mountains. Deeper than oceans. Reaches to me. Your love, oh Lord, reaches to the heavens. Your faithfulness, reaches to the skies.”

  5. Praying for you!

    Our prayer for you today, straight from scripture:
    The LORD is the everlasting God,
    the Creator of all the earth.
    He never grows weak or weary.
    No one can measure the depths of his understanding.
    He gives power to the weak
    and strength to the powerless.
    Even youths will become weak and tired,
    and young men will fall in exhaustion.
    But those who trust in the LORD will find new strength.
    They will soar high on wings like eagles.
    They will run and not grow weary.
    They will walk and not faint.
    Lord we pray this for our sweet friends, the Maiers. In Jesus’ precious name, Amen.

  6. Prayers going on for relief of pain and exhaustion. Check out Michael Smith’s” Help Is On The Way ” We will not stop these prayers. The Maiers are in my prayers continually and they will not stop. Hold On!,

  7. Praying for you and loving you as you walk this broken road. Asking God to remind you of His faithfulness and His care for you in every circumstance of life.

    “Walk by Faith”
    Jeremy Camp

    Would I believe you when you would say
    Your hand will guide my every way
    Will I receive the words You say
    Every moment of every day

    Well, I will walk by faith
    Even when I cannot see
    Well, because this broken road
    Prepares Your will for me

    Help me to win my endless fears
    You’ve been so faithful for all my years
    With one breath You make me new
    Your grace covers all I do

    Well, I’m broken- but I still see Your face
    Well You’ve spoken- pouring Your words of grace

  8. The marathon. Some strive to do marathons but in all honesty I think life is a marathon in itself. It’s neat to have goals but what are we accomplishing for eternity? When you do a long run there are moments when you feel like you can run forever and then there’s the moments you just want to be done- can’t keep going! But the path is still in front and there’s encouragement to look back a second and see how far you’ve come. Some days you might need to stay at the watering station awhile and refresh. Drink.
    The Lord uses broken hearts best because He can enter in easily and heal from the inside out. It’s so much better than a hardened heart. And I think it’s actually work to keep a heart from getting a little shield around it. But what God’s teaching me is the beauty of his friendship, his “daddy ship” His love and kindness, counseling and healing. He wants to hear the stuff. And it delights Him to see us turn to Him to pour out all that stress and tension. He can handle it.

  9. You are both very strong people. I pray for your strength and courage, for your comfort and understanding of God’s will. I wish I lived closer and that we were ‘better’ friends, that I could help with the stress. I believe in God’s grace. He has brought you to this struggle, he will bring you thru it. You are stronger than you think. ((Hugs))

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